Blogging in Progress.................................

SORRY FOR NEGELECTING YOU, MY DEAR BLOG~~

I'VE BEEN ON A HOLIDAY-ING MOOD....


WILL BE BACK SOON AND BEGIN MY HARDCORE BLOGGING MODE (... FOR OVER 20+ BLOG ENTRIES.... MEEP.)

P.S DON'T MISS ME TOO MUCH ♥

Blog Entries- Concerned.

When it comes to painting or drawing I'm a perfectionist- now i'm concerned bout my blogging blog entries.

The quality of my blog is going... meh...?!
I seem to be writing in 'moments', little bullet point form writing than actually writing a proper "formal"(?) blog entry with proper paragraphs, correct punctuation and spacing.

It looks messy and rushed, I should really edit my past blog entries sometime.. Add that on top of my workload...==
My blog is almost like a diary.. A diary with very weird blog entries lol. If I don't go back and edit my entries, it feels like I've got a thorn stuck in me. Achingly reminding me to edit, edit, edit.

August 01 2010

>>> Well this day has marked a whole month of blogging.

~Firstly, want to thankyou Abby for getting me thinking about blogging!
I really really REALLY like my blog. Even more so than going on FB! :)
Visually it's pleasing to the eye- the shades of pink are so nice and warm to look at, imagine as if I'm sitting in a cosy little room (with baby pink wallpaper.. no pink is NOT my fav colour!!) with a pen in my hand (black ink), a brown leather notebook lying open, sipping coffee (Moca. hehe recent habit.)...and lying back in a large armchair (shaped like a giant egg? or those comfy, soft old-fashioned ones). Preferably raining outside...Ahh.
...Instead of sitting in front of the computer in a cold corner of the house, with family friends playing mahjong next door! haha~ X)

~Some of the blog entries I've wrote are really random, some are more personal and come from my heart, while some are just plain LOL when I read them back! XD
I thought I would only write a couple of entries a month but i've suprised myself.
(25 in a month..)
Some events are too "good" to be left out and have to be written down!! I've tried to be as creative as possible...cause I plan to read "Me. Myself. and I" in the future and reminisce~~ I.e "hey! Good times!" XD
(Sometimes I really do have a bad memory. I dont want to forget those memories... even if they were once bad memories. hm. I'll learn from them..) :o

~ hm.. I've also used alot of codewords in my blog/mini blog on FB... that's really annoying. =="
I "sense" sometimes people are reading this..? Or maybe it's a coincidence?
If I was an outsider looking in... I'll be thinking "huh silly girl musings/ writing". =..= I might publish who "they" are one day... when I get over this BS. It might even be better if they didnt know who they are/who im talking about. Lol, it'll be my "dirty little secret"... >:)

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Off Topic:

~This is also the day of S.S's 19th bday.
I remember what he wrote on the day (...night) of my 18th bday on FB last year.
haha a happy bday msg at 12am.. So sweet! :)
He has "deactivated" his FB account now. (or maybe even deleted it! x.x) So I couldnt do the same on his wall. But i always promised myself I would do the same and I've kept that promise. Except now the msg is my FB status lol. XD

~ ♥ LOVE WITHOUT TALKING ♥
This is a title of a 12:12min vid clip i noticed on FB...
The title got me interested (T.G), cause when I started the first 3mins I was looking at the guy and thinking..wow he looks so "無聊". So shy and looking away from girls. I was tempted to stop watching.. but then there was this scene where he was in the kitchen preparing a meal as dinner, a missed out call/msg was being played in the background- From his parents saying cheerfully "///We are out /blah blah laugh blah//Oh you must be hanging out with your girlfriends now~~ ahahaha!"
>> There was no GF. He was all alone in the empty apartment. As the msg played, I saw his face, I could tell his face "fell" and his whole posture slumped.. very depressing. :(
So I kept watching to see what would happen to him.. I'm glad I did!

I wont say anymore. All 12:12mins of the vid, I find so sweeeeeet~~ :D
Lol it gives "single" people hope! XD

How could you? : / Part 2.

It's been a couple of hours.. i'm calmer, but i feel emotionally worse.
I'm the type to replay things in my mind over and over again, see?
especially things i find that could somehow influence my life, then i tend to OVER- analyse the situation.
I can't stop thinking about certain things, whether they were bad, happy or funny. (LOL at replaying funny moments coz I end up having a stupid grin on my face, maybe even give a small laugh out loud.. and then people around me would be looking at me as if i'm a crazy person...>>>hahahaha!! i.e. on the bus ;p)

>>Seriously, it's a bad habit.<<

Well earlier today I couldn't help replaying what my friend said.
Here's what I remember anyway:

G: "At the conference, you know ?, i've got something to tell you about him." *mysterious smirk* "It's bad"
Me: "how bad?"
G: "It's bad. but not that bad! You have to know."
Me: "If it's bad i'd rather not know....I dont want to know." *blocks ears*
G: "No you have to know!" *evil smirk*
Me: "blah blah blah can't hear you!!"
- G pulls hands away frm my ears-
Me:///guesses/ " so...he has a **********?"
G: "no"
Me: "he's a **********?"
G: "no"
Me: "HE's GAYYY?!!!!!" (i swear when i said this i was joking and i LOL'd lol!)
G: "No la. i'll tell you..../////
I had a talk with ? and i was asking if he knew of an ec mail that you sent him-"
Me: "-I didnt send him an ec mail G."
G: "oh anyway i was just saying if he knew what you think of him.." blah blah
Me: "Omg you weirdo!! why did you do that?! Arghh what did he say?"
G:"//// he said ' no la. we're just friends' and something like that.."
Me:"oh"..... "i'm embarassed now"


*From my memory*


The End.


I should have never went with G. to that Eazy... whatever that pearl milk tea drinking place was!
I dont want to think anymore.
I'm glad I have this blog, it feels so much better letting it out here. No contact with anyone, just me and the computer.

It's 9:17pm Thursday night.
Now i'm going to play Bejewelled Blitz and forget about G and ? and whoever else i've been pissed off at recently.
:P

MY Blog.

After the Monday incident, which i still hope that what i saw was /not/ real, I went to check the privacy settings on my blog and SHEBA! I saw that anyone could see my blog! I thought I had adjusted it so that only registered users in Blogger could see, which turns out there's no such option as that. Gah.
Only 3 options:
>Anyone
>Members (Invited/choosen)
>Blog Author (or selected authors)
Wow the privacy settings are pretty lame. =.=

I also forgot to change my settings on FB so even those that were not my friends could see that i have a blog in the "contact section".
damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.......... :S
...

So I hid my blog.

...
This morning, I thought: what was the purpose of having a blog in the first place?

Well, one reason was to let people that were caring enough (more like nosey enough) to check up on me and to have a small insight of my life.
I never meant to encourage/dishearten/anger etc. etc. anyone... but if anyone did feel something, serves them right for reading my blog in the first place. ;p

A more selfish reason in writing this blog was that it is for myself. As mentioned before, writing "releases" me from daily stress in my life haha. XD

...Do I really care what readers think of me?
In short, No.
I'm not writing this blog for anyone's benefit.

This is /MY/ blog.

So I'm not gonna hide anymore.
:))


Update:
-I just realised that blogs have view counts.. meep. :O
-OK. What i saw last night was not true. i doubt nashi ape was taking dance lessons and there was a doppelganger, but i'll take his word for it LOL. phew! relief!! XD