I remember I got annoyed at P last Tuesday.
It was really stupid of me to do so, and I guess I do have short temper.
"teenage angst" lol.
But listening to music afterwards... just makes me feel all mellow and relaxed again.
ahh.. :))
C'mon! He has 5 papers to do this semester and on top of that, aiesec work.
So i felt very selfish in calling him that name..T.G he doesn't know. =.="
I asked Gina about the aiesec workload and how was she coping, and she was like "Dont mention it..."...haha...=="
mm.
Btw everytime i see "AIESEC"... i get a mental "hit".. a reminder, of the embarassment i felt earlier..?
> It's silly. :S
> I should be thinking about uni work. He /is/ already focused about uni work.
=.=...... :)
~~~
There was also this quote from Inception that really HIT me:
“How could I capture all your beauty, your complexity, your perfection, your imperfection, in a dream? Yes, you’re the best that I can do. But, I’m sorry, you’re just not good enough.” ~ Cobb to Mal.
//OuCH//. :O
...I can't help but think im not as good as a student..
Not doing the best I /can/.
(I get so distracted easily! By FB and unneccessary things! Being lazy and having a
major procrastination problem doesn't help either.)
I've deactivated my FB account last night.
Hope it helps me.
PLUS i'm staying late at UoA every night!
Good work ethic, ay?
:))
Extra:
- wonder how long it will be till i go on FB again.... hehe...
...=.="""""""""
Update:
- Went onto FB to play Bejewelled Blitz... On a friends account of course! >:) (Thanksss A.M...)
- Met up with W.J..and Nimo too! Introduced them to each other and lol, afterwards Nimo complimented him that he was "hot".
huh/ I guess i've been with him too long to notice... =.=
- DOING MY FREAKING ARTHIST106 ASSIGNMENT AT NIGHT is FREAKY.
- Aug 18th. Now this time, i've got a right to be angry. See "RANT".
Showing posts with label secrets. Show all posts
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Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
The Second Irony
SHiT.
Shiiiiiiiiiiiiit...
The other day, I was mentioning to Abby how funny it was that Nashi Ape was sitting in front of me and P was behind me...and that they dont know each other.
WELL ScReW that!
Just glad they dont know the connection they have with each other
...involving nashi pear.
Update:
-Love 三角形...?
> NEVER!!!!!!
-I will never be 花 心. Cant say the same for P and some of my other friends though. *cough cough A.M cough!*
~~~
"No feelings will come across others until you put them through words."
~From CardCaptor Sakura (Jap translation)
.................................................or actions. O.O??
~~~
"This is my 3rd time testing on you
I’ve promised myself
This will be the last
If… he still doesn’t understand me
I’ll leave quietly."
~ From TANK 專屬天使 mv. (Chinese translation~ Ella)
Shiiiiiiiiiiiiit...
The other day, I was mentioning to Abby how funny it was that Nashi Ape was sitting in front of me and P was behind me...and that they dont know each other.
WELL ScReW that!
Just glad they dont know the connection they have with each other
...involving nashi pear.
Update:
-Love 三角形...?
> NEVER!!!!!!
-I will never be 花 心. Cant say the same for P and some of my other friends though. *cough cough A.M cough!*
~~~
"No feelings will come across others until you put them through words."
~From CardCaptor Sakura (Jap translation)
.................................................or actions. O.O??
~~~
"This is my 3rd time testing on you
I’ve promised myself
This will be the last
If… he still doesn’t understand me
I’ll leave quietly."
~ From TANK 專屬天使 mv. (Chinese translation~ Ella)
Sunday, August 1, 2010
August 01 2010
>>> Well this day has marked a whole month of blogging.
~Firstly, want to thankyou Abby for getting me thinking about blogging!
I really really REALLY like my blog. Even more so than going on FB! :)
Visually it's pleasing to the eye- the shades of pink are so nice and warm to look at, imagine as if I'm sitting in a cosy little room (with baby pink wallpaper.. no pink is NOT my fav colour!!) with a pen in my hand (black ink), a brown leather notebook lying open, sipping coffee (Moca. hehe recent habit.)...and lying back in a large armchair (shaped like a giant egg? or those comfy, soft old-fashioned ones). Preferably raining outside...Ahh.
...Instead of sitting in front of the computer in a cold corner of the house, with family friends playing mahjong next door! haha~ X)
~Some of the blog entries I've wrote are really random, some are more personal and come from my heart, while some are just plain LOL when I read them back! XD
I thought I would only write a couple of entries a month but i've suprised myself.
(25 in a month..)
Some events are too "good" to be left out and have to be written down!! I've tried to be as creative as possible...cause I plan to read "Me. Myself. and I" in the future and reminisce~~ I.e "hey! Good times!" XD
(Sometimes I really do have a bad memory. I dont want to forget those memories... even if they were once bad memories. hm. I'll learn from them..) :o
~ hm.. I've also used alot of codewords in my blog/mini blog on FB... that's really annoying. =="
I "sense" sometimes people are reading this..? Or maybe it's a coincidence?
If I was an outsider looking in... I'll be thinking "huh silly girl musings/ writing". =..= I might publish who "they" are one day... when I get over this BS. It might even be better if they didnt know who they are/who im talking about. Lol, it'll be my "dirty little secret"... >:)
...
Off Topic:
~This is also the day of S.S's 19th bday.
I remember what he wrote on the day (...night) of my 18th bday on FB last year.
haha a happy bday msg at 12am.. So sweet! :)
He has "deactivated" his FB account now. (or maybe even deleted it! x.x) So I couldnt do the same on his wall. But i always promised myself I would do the same and I've kept that promise. Except now the msg is my FB status lol. XD
~ ♥ LOVE WITHOUT TALKING ♥
This is a title of a 12:12min vid clip i noticed on FB...
The title got me interested (T.G), cause when I started the first 3mins I was looking at the guy and thinking..wow he looks so "無聊". So shy and looking away from girls. I was tempted to stop watching.. but then there was this scene where he was in the kitchen preparing a meal as dinner, a missed out call/msg was being played in the background- From his parents saying cheerfully "///We are out /blah blah laugh blah//Oh you must be hanging out with your girlfriends now~~ ahahaha!"
>> There was no GF. He was all alone in the empty apartment. As the msg played, I saw his face, I could tell his face "fell" and his whole posture slumped.. very depressing. :(
So I kept watching to see what would happen to him.. I'm glad I did!
I wont say anymore. All 12:12mins of the vid, I find so sweeeeeet~~ :D
Lol it gives "single" people hope! XD
~Firstly, want to thankyou Abby for getting me thinking about blogging!
I really really REALLY like my blog. Even more so than going on FB! :)
Visually it's pleasing to the eye- the shades of pink are so nice and warm to look at, imagine as if I'm sitting in a cosy little room (with baby pink wallpaper.. no pink is NOT my fav colour!!) with a pen in my hand (black ink), a brown leather notebook lying open, sipping coffee (Moca. hehe recent habit.)...and lying back in a large armchair (shaped like a giant egg? or those comfy, soft old-fashioned ones). Preferably raining outside...Ahh.
...Instead of sitting in front of the computer in a cold corner of the house, with family friends playing mahjong next door! haha~ X)
~Some of the blog entries I've wrote are really random, some are more personal and come from my heart, while some are just plain LOL when I read them back! XD
I thought I would only write a couple of entries a month but i've suprised myself.
(25 in a month..)
Some events are too "good" to be left out and have to be written down!! I've tried to be as creative as possible...cause I plan to read "Me. Myself. and I" in the future and reminisce~~ I.e "hey! Good times!" XD
(Sometimes I really do have a bad memory. I dont want to forget those memories... even if they were once bad memories. hm. I'll learn from them..) :o
~ hm.. I've also used alot of codewords in my blog/mini blog on FB... that's really annoying. =="
I "sense" sometimes people are reading this..? Or maybe it's a coincidence?
If I was an outsider looking in... I'll be thinking "huh silly girl musings/ writing". =..= I might publish who "they" are one day... when I get over this BS. It might even be better if they didnt know who they are/who im talking about. Lol, it'll be my "dirty little secret"... >:)
...
Off Topic:
~This is also the day of S.S's 19th bday.
I remember what he wrote on the day (...night) of my 18th bday on FB last year.
haha a happy bday msg at 12am.. So sweet! :)
He has "deactivated" his FB account now. (or maybe even deleted it! x.x) So I couldnt do the same on his wall. But i always promised myself I would do the same and I've kept that promise. Except now the msg is my FB status lol. XD
~ ♥ LOVE WITHOUT TALKING ♥
This is a title of a 12:12min vid clip i noticed on FB...
The title got me interested (T.G), cause when I started the first 3mins I was looking at the guy and thinking..wow he looks so "無聊". So shy and looking away from girls. I was tempted to stop watching.. but then there was this scene where he was in the kitchen preparing a meal as dinner, a missed out call/msg was being played in the background- From his parents saying cheerfully "///We are out /blah blah laugh blah//Oh you must be hanging out with your girlfriends now~~ ahahaha!"
>> There was no GF. He was all alone in the empty apartment. As the msg played, I saw his face, I could tell his face "fell" and his whole posture slumped.. very depressing. :(
So I kept watching to see what would happen to him.. I'm glad I did!
I wont say anymore. All 12:12mins of the vid, I find so sweeeeeet~~ :D
Lol it gives "single" people hope! XD
Friday, July 30, 2010
Wednesday.
Well I found out he wasn't in my tutorial.
>>>YES. :D
M.T says I still have an obsession on him...
I asked if Nashi Ape was still wearing *******...
And he told me I was making him feel uncomfortable (LOL) and refused to answer.
Haha~
More about him, I found out he used to go to the same college as me!
And THAT was from social interaction (thanks to J. unlike M.T!! ;p) not cyber observations lol.
>Woah. I would've walked passed him at some point in Years 9/10 and never knew I would meet him back at uni. <.<
>He's smart!! and plays the Violin/in orchestra!
>And lol it turns out he even went to the same intermediate as me!!
o.o"
The above sounds really stalkerish, I SWEAR i'm over him..........
......
......
......
......
.....
....
...
..
. YEA i am.
I like someone else now... I think.
=.=
UPDATE:
- 30th July 2010.
OMG.
>>>YES. :D
M.T says I still have an obsession on him...
I asked if Nashi Ape was still wearing *******...
And he told me I was making him feel uncomfortable (LOL) and refused to answer.
Haha~
More about him, I found out he used to go to the same college as me!
And THAT was from social interaction (thanks to J. unlike M.T!! ;p) not cyber observations lol.
>Woah. I would've walked passed him at some point in Years 9/10 and never knew I would meet him back at uni. <.<
>He's smart!! and plays the Violin/in orchestra!
>And lol it turns out he even went to the same intermediate as me!!
o.o"
The above sounds really stalkerish, I SWEAR i'm over him..........
......
......
......
......
.....
....
...
..
. YEA i am.
I like someone else now... I think.
=.=
UPDATE:
- 30th July 2010.
OMG.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Awkward Moment. Passed.
I thought I would let it pass, no.
Wait.
...I thought I /had/ let it pass,
but nooooo..~
I guess I was clinging it onto the back of my mind all this time. hha =.="
Anyway.
I said it.
I dont know what came over me but I've said it!
And you know what?
It's a great feeling...
:)
P.S Silly over-reactions lol.. ><"
hehe.
Wait.
...I thought I /had/ let it pass,
but nooooo..~
I guess I was clinging it onto the back of my mind all this time. hha =.="
Anyway.
I said it.
I dont know what came over me but I've said it!
And you know what?
It's a great feeling...
:)
P.S Silly over-reactions lol.. ><"
hehe.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Before Semester 2 Starts.
My To Do List:
I've done some "cooking", driving, reading (Bible), watched Hana Kimi, met up with friends, ah hem... exercised!, did decrease my time on FB (due to camp lol)...
...
On Hana Kimi:
After watching MV by Tank, I've been watching the taiwanese version of Hana Kimi.
It was produced in 2006.. Yes i know i'm behind.
So?
I never really was bothered catching up with overseas drama -unless recommended by friends. (I.e. Full House, My Girl, BOF and some TVB dramas.) :p
I'm up to episode 6.
Ella Chen looks so much like a boy- a cute boy! haha~
She's a wonderful actor.. Compared to Wu Zun.. Whose really awkward.. and cute.
NOT HOT!
Probably the guy who acts the hottest would be the gay doctor!
Second place: His nephew!!! LOL! the sex maniac bwahaha!!! >:)
...
About ?
Watched Whisper of the Heart two nights ago.
Um... I don't know what to say about the film without sounding overanalysing and paranoid...?! (not this again haha~)
...Of course I notice him... Just don't know what he thinks about me hoho. =.="
Last week something happened.. I told ? it had nothing to do with him... I lied.
I also deleted his **** because i was angry... not anymore.
>> Time can change people's feelings. For the better or worse...
We never did see each other often, and when we did, it was quiet.
I think i do **** him...more than he'll ever know/see anyway.
~~ :L On the Lighter side:
I had a dream about him last night. He was acting gay and I found he /was/ actually gay!!
And i was "heartbroken".
...LOL.
...
So Semester 2 of Uni is starting tomorrow...
I need to sort out my priorities. (i.e sleep earlier, study more, less FB etc etc)
...basically uni before my social life.
This semester will certainly be different!
(Especially how Iam taking 4 papers that require lots of essay writing. SHEBA.)
>>> ADD OIL ME! <<<
:))
Update:
- Lately i've been trying to stomp out the romance BS thoughts that's happened. But it's slowly coming back...
Damn it.
Plus that happy lovey dovey song at the opening of Hana kimi is stuck going round and round my head!! x.x
- Need to buy my coursebooks/readers/textbooks.
- Might meet with friends on tues.
I've done some "cooking", driving, reading (Bible), watched Hana Kimi, met up with friends, ah hem... exercised!, did decrease my time on FB (due to camp lol)...
...
On Hana Kimi:
After watching MV by Tank, I've been watching the taiwanese version of Hana Kimi.
It was produced in 2006.. Yes i know i'm behind.
So?
I never really was bothered catching up with overseas drama -unless recommended by friends. (I.e. Full House, My Girl, BOF and some TVB dramas.) :p
I'm up to episode 6.
Ella Chen looks so much like a boy- a cute boy! haha~
She's a wonderful actor.. Compared to Wu Zun.. Whose really awkward.. and cute.
NOT HOT!
Probably the guy who acts the hottest would be the gay doctor!
Second place: His nephew!!! LOL! the sex maniac bwahaha!!! >:)
...
About ?
Watched Whisper of the Heart two nights ago.
Um... I don't know what to say about the film without sounding overanalysing and paranoid...?! (not this again haha~)
...Of course I notice him... Just don't know what he thinks about me hoho. =.="
Last week something happened.. I told ? it had nothing to do with him... I lied.
I also deleted his **** because i was angry... not anymore.
>> Time can change people's feelings. For the better or worse...
We never did see each other often, and when we did, it was quiet.
I think i do **** him...more than he'll ever know/see anyway.
~~ :L On the Lighter side:
I had a dream about him last night. He was acting gay and I found he /was/ actually gay!!
And i was "heartbroken".
...LOL.
...
So Semester 2 of Uni is starting tomorrow...
I need to sort out my priorities. (i.e sleep earlier, study more, less FB etc etc)
...basically uni before my social life.
This semester will certainly be different!
(Especially how Iam taking 4 papers that require lots of essay writing. SHEBA.)
>>> ADD OIL ME! <<<
:))
Update:
- Lately i've been trying to stomp out the romance BS thoughts that's happened. But it's slowly coming back...
Damn it.
Plus that happy lovey dovey song at the opening of Hana kimi is stuck going round and round my head!! x.x
- Need to buy my coursebooks/readers/textbooks.
- Might meet with friends on tues.
Monday, July 5, 2010
...mm.
I better get this out. This has been the biggest thing that I've encountered this semester.
Guys.
I've met this guy who i've never expect to meet in real life. He's so arty musicky, sophisticated but older and was my *****... So completely unethical and offlimits.. I know.
He has been playing mind games on me.
And so i've turned into a somewhat cryptic person too.
My friends have been worried about me and frustrated with me. I've caused so much annoyance to people on FB too haha... I'm sorry. I won't let my obsession get away with me again!!
There were two other guys I think i've been playing(?) too. Not intentionally of course.. One of them is my ********* friend and my **** ******* last year.
He's a gentleman. I'm pretty sure he likes me (or used to), except I don't feel the same way. Or if I did, the feelings lost...
He's moved on now. Yes.
Then this guy... He's so quiet.. or maybe I'm quiet too. He's ****. So much more asian than me even though I'm from HK, and /should/ be totally asian. (total banana ah yah..:P). I think he (mis)understood somethings I wanted to direct to the first guy... And now I don't know what to think of him or what he thinks of me!
Everyime we chat I feel like I take this effort to start the convo.. Maybe i'm thinking too much but it feels like im in a one sided convo. I feel i'm annoying him by talking first (usually) which I hope isn't really true. He plays *****.. so am I distracting him or what? Do i /want/ his attention? ..Do I like him??... Does he /like/ me??!!
So frustrating.
Sometimes, we manage to talk easily..and i feel this "connection" that the convo is flowing so well (An hour flies by without me realising it!) :D
I want to hang out with him but i'm so awkward lol! Talking on FB is one thing.. Real life is another!
>Am I being difficult?
... I want ? to stay.
In my life.
Why can't you see that?
:/
Guys.
I've met this guy who i've never expect to meet in real life. He's so arty musicky, sophisticated but older and was my *****... So completely unethical and offlimits.. I know.
He has been playing mind games on me.
And so i've turned into a somewhat cryptic person too.
My friends have been worried about me and frustrated with me. I've caused so much annoyance to people on FB too haha... I'm sorry. I won't let my obsession get away with me again!!
There were two other guys I think i've been playing(?) too. Not intentionally of course.. One of them is my ********* friend and my **** ******* last year.
He's a gentleman. I'm pretty sure he likes me (or used to), except I don't feel the same way. Or if I did, the feelings lost...
He's moved on now. Yes.
Then this guy... He's so quiet.. or maybe I'm quiet too. He's ****. So much more asian than me even though I'm from HK, and /should/ be totally asian. (total banana ah yah..:P). I think he (mis)understood somethings I wanted to direct to the first guy... And now I don't know what to think of him or what he thinks of me!
Everyime we chat I feel like I take this effort to start the convo.. Maybe i'm thinking too much but it feels like im in a one sided convo. I feel i'm annoying him by talking first (usually) which I hope isn't really true. He plays *****.. so am I distracting him or what? Do i /want/ his attention? ..Do I like him??... Does he /like/ me??!!
So frustrating.
Sometimes, we manage to talk easily..and i feel this "connection" that the convo is flowing so well (An hour flies by without me realising it!) :D
I want to hang out with him but i'm so awkward lol! Talking on FB is one thing.. Real life is another!
>Am I being difficult?
... I want ? to stay.
In my life.
Why can't you see that?
:/
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